Posts tagged ‘Journey’

Oh Transition…

Ok this whole transition period I’m going through is driving me nuts. I’m here camped out at my parents house, my car is broken ( a minor accident my fault of course) I’m broke, and to top it all off I got fired lol. When life hands you lemons you what throw them at people, no I’m just kidding you make lemonade lol. Either way  I am in between jobs, it’s a first for me because I have worked since I was 16 sometimes two and even three jobs at a time, so I am used to working, having something to do. But I told myself that I would take some time for myself, I have been thinking about opening my own business something small selling my crafts and what not.  I have been trying to get my business off the ground for the last two years but between work and school I just never had enough time.  But now I am going to have money coming in every week for bills and a completely open calendar so I am gonna give it a go.  I have a lot of plans its just this little waiting period I have to go through till the money starts coming in is killing me.  I’m using my income taxes to get my car fixed which needs to be done unless I want to walk everywhere I go which on one hand would be good for the fitness part of my self-improvement journey.  My mom asked me what my goal was career wise and I told her flat-out, I don’t know that’s sad I’m 26 and I just don’t know. I know I want to own my own business but with me the problem lies with which business do I start with? I’m creative, I’m a darn good cook, I do graphic design I do crafts, I’m one step away from having my Real Estate license I mean really I have so many options and ideas it is super hard for me to concentrate and stay focused on one. But all that comes second to my real passion which is going to shock a couple of folks… wait for it…..wait for it….To beperfectly honest with you though I would be happy being a housewife raising my children barefoot and pregnant. Wow I feel like I just sent women back 50 years but in all honesty taking care of my family doing my crafts and running a household sounds pretty much perfect to me.  I have worked in some good jobs and I have definitely worked in some of the more crappy ones, and one thing remained the same in all of the places I worked. I was never appreciated, and no one genuinely cared about anything besides the money I was making for them.   I think with the amount of time I would spend away from home making someone else rich and I just think it is not worth it.  That time  could be going to my family which would appreciate and love me and so to me there is just no other option. But hey all this is in the future being so I do not have a husband yet and I do not have any children, it’s not my time yet but when it is I am going to be ready which is why I am going through my self improvement stage now so when god is ready to put that special someone in my life I will be ready for him.

Better Choices

I started my resolution early this year about the end of December due to a couple unfortunate events, and I am happy to say that I have stuck with it so far.  I had an idea today that I think is going to do me good. Wait for it, wait for it….I decided today that I was going to start 2 days out of the week eating a strictly vegeterian diet.  I’m really good about eating vegtables and salads and things so I figured I would give it a try.  Who knows maybe I will give it all up someday.   I need to lose some weight so one of my goals for this year is to drop twenty pounds and then I’m going to go from there but initially Im just gonna start with twenty, because I feel that is do able.  I got my WII active sports ready so I can keep track of everything its sad though because Ive had it for a year and I did one complete program.  Whats even worse is when I bought it I was so motivated I threw out all my junk food bought yogurt and nuts and went shopping for excercise clothes which I have yet to wear again.  I even bought shoes lol which became my errand slide on to run to the store shoes so ummmm yeah to say that weightloss attempt was an epic fail is an understatement. But this time is different, I really want to work on me, to be a better me.