Well I Spilled the Beans.

I went ahead and told him kinda sorta. It didn’t turn out well but it didn’t turn out bad it was one of those things that was just blah. But really I couldn’t expect much because like I said the situation is not one that we can make anything out of right now anyway.  But I feel better now that it is out in the open, and I still have a friend.  Not to mention it is on the table  so if the situation does ever change we can take it from there.

Being a Girl.

Women are some emotional unstable creatures. LOL. Well part of that is true because I am definitely a very emotional person. I try to be gaurded for that very reason. When I love I love hard, so when I am let down it hurts like high well you know where I’m going with that.  Recently I have found myself letting someone close to me but as it is right now nothing could ever come of it.  In the age of technology though nothing is impossible. But I have it bad! I mean really bad! I can’t say his name without grinning, he crosses my mind at least 10 times a day, and if I don’t talk to him I feel my day is just not complete. I feel silly because the situation does not allow me to express how I feel without in my opinion making me look silly. But its just not very often I find someone who is so much like me.  Or who appreciates the things I like, and values the things I value.  I mean really I’m an odd girl for my age. I like Harry Potter, and Twilight, I sew, and knit, I actually like to keep house, I like going in my daddy’s garden to pick vegetables so I can preserve them, but at the same time I am a complete Technology Junkie ( well I don’t have it as bad as some people) but I can still appreciate a new gadget. Not many girls now days are into the more traditional roles of a woman, they are more concerned with partying, I know because for a while there I played that role. Until I was able to see that that was not and has never really been me.  I am much happier in the house with my ipod my Cricut or my sewing machine.  Even still with all that he gets me. He really genuinely gets me. We can talk for hours and they are actually hours of meaningful conversation. He’s so smart it’s crazy how he explains things to me, stuff that I normally on my own would not expose myself to but for whatever reasons when they come from him it’s like…I just hang on his every word. To say I like him is an understatement but to say anything else would make me seem like a Gullible NUT JOB. Oh what to do? What to do? If only I were a boy…

 

Dial up.

Ok so I got my cable and internet turned on at my house yesterday and I was sitting here trying to figure out why both my computers were moving so slow. My Mac is a little older so I thought that that was why, but then I got on my laptop and it took Bing dern near five minutes to load to Im like what is going on? So I called Suddenlink come to find out they had me on some dial up package ( not really dial up but still super slow) I was sitting here seriously about to go crazy trying to surf the net. Problem solved now though.  Today has been a pretty good day I folded my mountain of laundry made a whole playlist full of old R&B from like the 80’s and 90’s I need to go out, but I really don’t feel like it, but I’m gonna stop being lazy and get out the house.I bought my domain and hosting for my online store.  I have not finished with it yet but when I do I will post a link. I plan on being done by tonight and ready for business in the morning. Im going to go to the Salvation Army to see if I can find anything that needs some TLC  just to mix it up.  In my Daddy’s words people will buy anything.  I have a lot of African American novels I also want to put on Ebay because I have read them all and frankly I need the space for my crafting supplies.  Right about now my closet is gone crazy.  I can’t stand people who don’t get rid of things they don’t use and I refuse to be one of them.